The other day I was listening to an episode of iWeigh with Jameela Jamil with Doctor Deepika Chopra as her guest. They were talking about what optimism means. Most people, when they hear the word "optimism" will probably associate it with "positivity". The way doctor Deepika Chopra interprets optimism felt much more encompassing to me. She described it as a combination of resiliency (overcoming struggle) and curiosity. Upon hearing that, I felt heard. When I was younger I always tried to be and present as positive as possible, so I would be accepted by others. That also meant that I felt shame whenever I felt down for no specific reason and even if I had my reasons. Now that I'm older and becoming more aware of my own behavior, I'm trying to be as open as I can about my mental health around close friends and loved ones. At times that makes me feel like I am "being negative again" or not positive enough, even though I still consider myself as a r